I just realized that my last post had a lot of indirect talk of "love" and stuff. So I wanted to share how my views of love have changed this year.
If you look way back to the beginning of this blog, it started at the beginning of my freshman year. I was new to college, single, and excited about the potential of finding my husband at college. Boy crazy, you might call it. So any time I met a new boy I was immediately on the phone with my BFF Hannah, assessing and analyzing whether or not he was my future husband.
This year was marked by relationship failures. Most of them weren't so bad, just little things that never amounted to anything or ended up not working out. But some of them were really awful. And painful. And messy.
So I'm on the other side of it all, still single, and looking forward to keeping it that way for a while. But it's not because of all of the failures that occurred this year in relationships. It's not because I've lost hope in guys and think they're all a buncha toolz with no brain. On the contrary, I actually have a greater belief in true love and the ability of Christian men to rise as leaders and become God-serving Christian husbands.
Yet I feel less urgency to find my husband than I have probably in my entire life. It doesn't really even matter to me if marriage is in my future.
So, to say the least, my feelings and thoughts have changed in the past year. I'm so at peace with where I am and I mean, how could I not be so incredibly filled when looking upon such a wonderful savior?
His glory is my joy. Forever. <3
(Don't worry, I still love gawking at Mr. Darcy in Pride and Prejudice...I haven't changed THAT much)
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