Submission

Something feels off about today.

I woke up and just felt so strange, like something about today was not normal. I'm not superstitious, but it got me thinking.

I don't have control.

Today, anything could happen. There are so many opportunities for good, happy things to come about, and just as many opportunities for sad, unwanted things. But whatever happens, I don't get to choose.

There are some choices I have. I can take precautions and try to avoid tragedy, but ultimately that won't work. I can be proactive and seek out good things, but those efforts can fail, as well. In the end, what happens happens and sometimes there's nothing you can do about it.

I have a doctor's appointment today.

There's a small, hard bump on the back-side of my skull and it's been growing at a pretty slow pace over the past few months, and I've been advised by several people to have it checked out, just so I know what it is.

It's probably nothing. But it just confirmed these thoughts that anything can happen, and I don't - I can't - control it.

There's a sort of beauty in not being in control. There's a strange freedom in submission when you realize that you're not big enough to control the world or even your own life.

Today I submit to the will of God. And to the events that may happen that I cannot control. I will be joyful in knowing that I am not in charge and I don't get to choose everything. I will be thankful that God sends blessing upon blessing to us, no matter who we are. I will call out and recognize the good things in my life and I will humbly accept the bad things.

Today, I will rest. I'll rest in knowing that I don't have to have everything planned out and figured out. I will rest in the belief that life is a blessing no matter what the situation. I'll rest in the confidence that God can use all things to refine me if I'll only submit and trust Him.

Today I will take advantage of the choices I do have. I will choose to be forgiving. I will choose to give generously. I will choose to not worry. I will choose to encourage. I will choose to look on the bright side. I will choose to obey. I choose joy and kindness and humility and peace.


And the rest I will lay gently at the feet of the Ruler of All to be used as He so pleases, to be tested as He so wills, to be blessed as he so graciously desires.

Because Oh, How I trust Him. And Oh, how He loves.